Down at the Cannibal Cafe
they're serving up
racks of Leroy
and eyeball soup
The sauce is as red as congealed blood
and sticks to the roof of your mouth
you can get a tomato and accountant
sandwich for the price
of a cup of coffee from the fancy place
down the street
Down at the Cannibal Cafe
they make sure you never go hungry
they fill your plate with
liver and brain
and something gelatinous
slopping over the edges
you never go hungry
Down at the Cannibal Cafe
where the musicians
play nightly
on drums made of tattooed skin
and bang on old hollow skulls
with shin bones
they get a little raucous
when the whisky runs out
and have been known to
throw the grill through
the front window
on special occasions
but you never go hungry
down at the Cannibal Cafe
the waitresses with something red
and dead
smeared down the front of
their aprons
always make sure your glass is full
even if you find the occasional finger bone
in your punch
the chef has a whole wall
of the biggest, shiniest meat cleavers
you ever did see
down at the Cannibal Cafe
he likes to finger them
while taking your order
and once threw one
through a uppity yuppie's
brain pan
and the porridge had a lot
of weird clumps in it
the next morning
Down at the Cannibal Cafe
there are chickens running free in the kitchen
and rats paying checkers in the back
the cashier's cigarette dangles
between his greasy lips
with a full inch of ash
perpetually threatening to fall
in your plate of eggs and scrambled kidneys
delivery men tend to disappear
Down at the Cannibal Cafe
and nobody knows why
There's pelvic bones hanging from the ceiling
There's fingernails in the coffee
There's lipstick on the cups
and sometimes you even find the lips
still attached
There's something lumpy
and unidentifiable in the chili
The chef has be adding arsenic
to the ice cream lately
but if you hang around long enough
you get used to it
Down at the Cannibal Cafe
you never go hungry
but you have to be awful careful
you don't end up on the menu
and I suggest staying away
from the tuna surprise
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Sunday, November 30, 2014
God, I'm Hungry
I have a secret drawer
I keep my lovers there
I hide them under my father's obituary
and one of the few medals
I ever won
You never gave me a letter
and I had to steal a photo
so I have little to keep
and fewer places to remember them
stuck between the pages of some volume
I hid my hunger
the petals of a different love
and I forgot about them
someday in the mountians of books
that fill my bookcases
I will stumble across it again
and remember something
feel something
trace those pressed edges
and peel up the corners
my underneath
never really forgets
I move on
but I am not the kind
to ever really let go
it's always under there
somewhere
maybe stuck to the underside of the desk
weighed down by old trinkets
but I never really
let my love for you go
I am as dusty
as a dust jacket
crinkled like ancient paper
I pressed myself in those pages long ago
between those covers
petrified like old cookies
warm as chocolate tea
that's where I keep my secret hunger
folded and bent
under a thousand feet
of broken heart pieces
with the curse
of a good memory
and the prying apart
of tenderest lips
I keep my lovers there
I hide them under my father's obituary
and one of the few medals
I ever won
You never gave me a letter
and I had to steal a photo
so I have little to keep
and fewer places to remember them
stuck between the pages of some volume
I hid my hunger
the petals of a different love
and I forgot about them
someday in the mountians of books
that fill my bookcases
I will stumble across it again
and remember something
feel something
trace those pressed edges
and peel up the corners
my underneath
never really forgets
I move on
but I am not the kind
to ever really let go
it's always under there
somewhere
maybe stuck to the underside of the desk
weighed down by old trinkets
but I never really
let my love for you go
I am as dusty
as a dust jacket
crinkled like ancient paper
I pressed myself in those pages long ago
between those covers
petrified like old cookies
warm as chocolate tea
that's where I keep my secret hunger
folded and bent
under a thousand feet
of broken heart pieces
with the curse
of a good memory
and the prying apart
of tenderest lips
Saturday, November 8, 2014
The Monster In My Head
you come creeping
and seeping
and peeling back
my layers
nephilim
too sad to be
beautiful
too beautiful
to be mine
it tells me
I am worth nothing
I am not
lovable
but detesting
is my domain
and I dwell here
buried
I am burned
by unwant
quicker than
any acid
I am scorched
by need
faster than
any poison
I am crippled
slung under the
weight
of a thousand
dirty hearts
reality
is a dark crutch
and I have found
lofty ideas
often strip
us down
the morning star
guides me
to my drowned
self
I am the sliver
buried in
your sex
I am worth
nothing
so much
as your hate
your indifference
your avoidance
this is a
place I have been before
I locked the doors
tossed the furniture
out the window
sat on the bare floor
and ripped myself
open
guts all over the
walls
a beating heart
still in my hand
ethereal
glowing
unreal
this land
so unreal
cast me out
demon
cast me down
hate me
spit me out
vomit me up
rip me apart
I am the eye
and I see you
the Scorpio moon
bound us
I burnt the hair
and found us
there
cast me out
I am your demon
in love for
eternity
and buried
under a hundred feet
of solid rock
I will never be right
and can only lust
like monsters do
and seeping
and peeling back
my layers
nephilim
too sad to be
beautiful
too beautiful
to be mine
it tells me
I am worth nothing
I am not
lovable
but detesting
is my domain
and I dwell here
buried
I am burned
by unwant
quicker than
any acid
I am scorched
by need
faster than
any poison
I am crippled
slung under the
weight
of a thousand
dirty hearts
reality
is a dark crutch
and I have found
lofty ideas
often strip
us down
the morning star
guides me
to my drowned
self
I am the sliver
buried in
your sex
I am worth
nothing
so much
as your hate
your indifference
your avoidance
this is a
place I have been before
I locked the doors
tossed the furniture
out the window
sat on the bare floor
and ripped myself
open
guts all over the
walls
a beating heart
still in my hand
ethereal
glowing
unreal
this land
so unreal
cast me out
demon
cast me down
hate me
spit me out
vomit me up
rip me apart
I am the eye
and I see you
the Scorpio moon
bound us
I burnt the hair
and found us
there
cast me out
I am your demon
in love for
eternity
and buried
under a hundred feet
of solid rock
I will never be right
and can only lust
like monsters do
Thursday, November 6, 2014
SpectreLand
I keep the horror in my bedside table drawer
turn it on high when I need a blood transfusion
and a bad dream
the hinges scream
wake up the neighbors
they cover their ears
knowing it's happening again
who is that raven haired ghost?
they know I'm haunting the rooms
moving the walls
tossing the furniture
ripping up the floor boards
and in the morning
it will all be back in place
just like no one was ever there
the quiet
will be frightening
stillness
becomes a horror of its own
I own it
parade it around
like a rotting gown
all laced Victorian will
mourning enamel etched into the crowns
little skulls
with grinning faces
a flowing of eyes
drifting in on gossamer mist
the staircase breathes
shifts and creaks
the walls rupture
the yellow paper covering it
runs about the room
in skittering little patterns
around the edge
that woman chases it
never leaves it
I watch her struggle
float to the ceiling
drip blood onto the heads
of craning necks
and tourists
there's a severed limb
in the hallway
it makes a nice decoration
you can plant flowers
in the empty sockets
we got trapped here
when we tried to leave
violence pinned us down
like butterflies
on felt backgrounds
we are the edge
the living fear
and move as vapor
through these timeless scenes
unrelenting in our recollections
always fearful of what we knew
we have no end
we are the reflection
we have no way
even the greatest exorcist
can not clear us out
we are the denizens
of this house
and I know above all else
there is nothing better
on the other side
turn it on high when I need a blood transfusion
and a bad dream
the hinges scream
wake up the neighbors
they cover their ears
knowing it's happening again
who is that raven haired ghost?
they know I'm haunting the rooms
moving the walls
tossing the furniture
ripping up the floor boards
and in the morning
it will all be back in place
just like no one was ever there
the quiet
will be frightening
stillness
becomes a horror of its own
I own it
parade it around
like a rotting gown
all laced Victorian will
mourning enamel etched into the crowns
little skulls
with grinning faces
a flowing of eyes
drifting in on gossamer mist
the staircase breathes
shifts and creaks
the walls rupture
the yellow paper covering it
runs about the room
in skittering little patterns
around the edge
that woman chases it
never leaves it
I watch her struggle
float to the ceiling
drip blood onto the heads
of craning necks
and tourists
there's a severed limb
in the hallway
it makes a nice decoration
you can plant flowers
in the empty sockets
we got trapped here
when we tried to leave
violence pinned us down
like butterflies
on felt backgrounds
we are the edge
the living fear
and move as vapor
through these timeless scenes
unrelenting in our recollections
always fearful of what we knew
we have no end
we are the reflection
we have no way
even the greatest exorcist
can not clear us out
we are the denizens
of this house
and I know above all else
there is nothing better
on the other side
Monday, November 3, 2014
The Horror of Who I Am
I am the Green Eyed Devil
much too hard to love
with the tastiest meat
that you vomit up
after eating too much
you're fumbling with the lock
trying to get out
before I can wake up
those Green Eyes are a trap
that look
that gentleness
you want to pluck those eyes out
you ate enough last night
can't stand that devilish love
you ain't coming back
not again
looking back up the stairs
you see my Green Eyes
following you
drowned in emotion
tears trembling on eyelashes
you'll be back
when you're drunk
and high
and horny
and need those warm tits
to slip in between
I am the Green Eyed Devil
imprisoned in the ice
six wings
six mouths
frozen right here
in my rage
every feeling
stays with me forever
I fell
but not so far
as the floor
it held me up
cracked under my weight
ugly girl
crack your head
against the pavement
jumped a little too far
too handsome
to be trusted
they come for me
one by one
their dicks in their hands
their hearts in their throats
save us
heal us
please us
go away
go away
away
Green Eyed Devil
go away
we never wanted you anyways
much too hard to love
with the tastiest meat
that you vomit up
after eating too much
you're fumbling with the lock
trying to get out
before I can wake up
those Green Eyes are a trap
that look
that gentleness
you want to pluck those eyes out
you ate enough last night
can't stand that devilish love
you ain't coming back
not again
looking back up the stairs
you see my Green Eyes
following you
drowned in emotion
tears trembling on eyelashes
you'll be back
when you're drunk
and high
and horny
and need those warm tits
to slip in between
I am the Green Eyed Devil
imprisoned in the ice
six wings
six mouths
frozen right here
in my rage
every feeling
stays with me forever
I fell
but not so far
as the floor
it held me up
cracked under my weight
ugly girl
crack your head
against the pavement
jumped a little too far
too handsome
to be trusted
they come for me
one by one
their dicks in their hands
their hearts in their throats
save us
heal us
please us
go away
go away
away
Green Eyed Devil
go away
we never wanted you anyways
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
yeux vers
"I just don't feel right,
unless I see my lover every night"
garnet lipped dips
beyond the hem of the skirt
the flirt
sliding up against you
green eyes fading into the dark
where is her spark?
she screams in the deepness
pants at the edge of the bed
she's so wrong
and will never be right
but your fingers sink into her skin
your tongue finding her mouth so sweet
and the heat
from her
burns
and turns
ecstasy traveling up your limbs
and she fights
against you
for you
to be near you
slips into the night
breathless
reeling on the edge of the dance floor
her eyes ever searching for you
trying to find you in the smoke
green eyes following you down the stairs
and to the back room
you hate her
pretty but wrong
wrong shape
wrong thoughts
wrong balance
wrong dreams
wrong place
wrong time
she comes back
sweet green eyes and stolen kiss
anger and hurt
simmering just underneath them
every night you can feel her thinking about you
loving you
crying for you
under the weight of a thousand bad dreams
and you won't come
you'll feel right
in flight
and find that better lay
proper
balanced
obedient
a better day
and you'll feel just right
she's the burden you long to leave
and never can
green eyes heave
and bury themselves without you ever noticing
unless I see my lover every night"
garnet lipped dips
beyond the hem of the skirt
the flirt
sliding up against you
green eyes fading into the dark
where is her spark?
she screams in the deepness
pants at the edge of the bed
she's so wrong
and will never be right
but your fingers sink into her skin
your tongue finding her mouth so sweet
and the heat
from her
burns
and turns
ecstasy traveling up your limbs
and she fights
against you
for you
to be near you
slips into the night
breathless
reeling on the edge of the dance floor
her eyes ever searching for you
trying to find you in the smoke
green eyes following you down the stairs
and to the back room
you hate her
pretty but wrong
wrong shape
wrong thoughts
wrong balance
wrong dreams
wrong place
wrong time
she comes back
sweet green eyes and stolen kiss
anger and hurt
simmering just underneath them
every night you can feel her thinking about you
loving you
crying for you
under the weight of a thousand bad dreams
and you won't come
you'll feel right
in flight
and find that better lay
proper
balanced
obedient
a better day
and you'll feel just right
she's the burden you long to leave
and never can
green eyes heave
and bury themselves without you ever noticing
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Suicide Love Note
Who would want me?
I don't even want me.
I'm just waving from the pond
ducking under the water
with stones in my pockets
little drips of cyanide
leaving acid punches
to the inside of my cheeks
deep in love
with the hole
in the backyard
I dug it last year
keep the dog far hence
lest he dig it up again
I planted bone trees
in the bone yards
bleached by the sun
worn by the weather
I'm leaking love
spitting out charm
choking on need
trying to fuck my way
to forgiveness
and failing
and flailing
and tumbling
down the steps
of your indifference
fucking those pretty whores
in their pretty faces
I don't wanna
know anything anymore
why do I have to put up
with your guilt?
I did nothing
to deserve it
and I lack it entirely
I've got a note for you
I wrote it on my flesh
in the form of black eyes
and fucked up
reasonable decisions
Love is the lie they tell
to you
when they want
your legs to open up
and your cunt to spill out
I fucked the world
looking for you
and you would rather
kill your heart
than let me know you
I found the reason to die
and it was in your eyes
the whole fucking time
I don't even want me.
I'm just waving from the pond
ducking under the water
with stones in my pockets
little drips of cyanide
leaving acid punches
to the inside of my cheeks
deep in love
with the hole
in the backyard
I dug it last year
keep the dog far hence
lest he dig it up again
I planted bone trees
in the bone yards
bleached by the sun
worn by the weather
I'm leaking love
spitting out charm
choking on need
trying to fuck my way
to forgiveness
and failing
and flailing
and tumbling
down the steps
of your indifference
fucking those pretty whores
in their pretty faces
I don't wanna
know anything anymore
why do I have to put up
with your guilt?
I did nothing
to deserve it
and I lack it entirely
I've got a note for you
I wrote it on my flesh
in the form of black eyes
and fucked up
reasonable decisions
Love is the lie they tell
to you
when they want
your legs to open up
and your cunt to spill out
I fucked the world
looking for you
and you would rather
kill your heart
than let me know you
I found the reason to die
and it was in your eyes
the whole fucking time
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