Shades of Hate

i'm just a little bit unnatural
difficult
pregnant with rain
all dark cloud
thundering
over you

i'm just a little bit violent
tasteless
full of chittering
never taking the easy way
always sputtering
locked up tight

i'm just a little bit hateful
i tried on love
but it chafed
not on me
but you
you are a blister

i'm just a little bit amused
at your bloody nose
that I put there
with the kiss
of a fist
so pretty

i'm just a little bit spiteful
never been big on reality
you don't want to come in here
you don't want to know what I keep
all locked up
where no one can see

i'm just a little bit frightening
much too hard to trust
much too wild to hold onto
i love like a hurricane
and send stop signs
through your neck

i'm just a little bit destructive
i crush the roof
of your peaceful palace
i rip holes
in your favorite clothes
i stomp on your toes
and never say sorry

in absolute truth
I'm not a little bit of anything
I am everything
Godzilla leveling buildings
Scathach killing kings
Lilith eating souls
Kali crushing worlds

I am Everything
and in this vast nothingness
of my heart
I rule All
and see you futile men
die before me

Leanan Sidhe

you never saw that Hell coming up behind you
all smiles and pretty eyes
she wiggled right on over to you
black magic kiss
on the side of your cheek

you were waiting for those same red lips
to wrap themselves around your cock
her eyes looking up at you
your hand tangled in her hair

you never saw what she held behind her back
never saw how she looked at you
how she watched you when you slept
never got a fucking clue
too lost in her tongue and those red, red lips

too deep
to get yourself out
you mistook that fire for passion
you couldn't taste the poison
clinging to her words
couldn't fucking take your mind
off of her perfect tits

all you could feel was yourself
sinking into her wet center
her slipping around you
so warm and tight
like some sort of black hole heaven

you never saw the hate in her heart
never saw the gun under the bed
never knew that violence
could come in such as pretty package
"oh, pretty girl,
open your mouth for me again"

you wonder now how the walls go so red
was her lipstick smeared on your eyeballs?
was that the bathroom sink dripping
or your heart?
why is it so sticky in here?
when did her skin get so cold?
when did those horns sprout from her head?

Hell is so very pretty
and has such beautiful green eyes
why are those green eyes taking up the whole world?
Hell has the nicest mouth
the most touchable ass
such delectable hips
and the most perfect tits to slide between

When she came
the Devil stood up and took notice
and when Hell followed with her
you turned to ash and cinders
beneath her perilous hands
and had to bite your tongue
to keep from screaming

Black Dog

you brought in a spark with you
and burnt the fucking room down

you found me
with pieces of meat
hanging from my teeth

you found me
licking away
at old wounds

you found me
all teeth
and yellow eyes

you burnt the fucking room down
to keep me out

you once would have
followed my round ass
all the way to Hell

but look at the trouble
we are in now

I'll bristle when you touch me
I'll howl when hunt me
I'll smile all too much teeth

so much better to eat you with

my eyes may be closed
but I never ever sleep

I licked your hand like an adoring pet
you liked that
and smiled down at me

but I have seen the gates of Hell
where I loved demons
with many heads and grotesque limbs

I have scoured
the earth and the heavens
for tasty morsels of fleshy lovers

I have shoved my head
under the hand of God
and purred dangerously in his lap

Never trust that I am not hungry for you

Do not lay your hand upon my head
with the assumption
that I will not bite you

Do not mistake my growling for affection

Do not turn your back on me

For I never worry
about biting the hand that feeds me
especially when I am oh so hungry

The Monster In My Head

you come creeping
and seeping
and peeling back
my layers

nephilim
too sad to be
beautiful
too beautiful
to be mine

it tells me
I am worth nothing
I am not
lovable

but detesting
is my domain
and I dwell here
buried

I am burned
by unwant
quicker than
any acid

I am scorched
by need
faster than
any poison

I am crippled
slung under the
weight
of a thousand
dirty hearts

reality
is a dark crutch
and I have found
lofty ideas
often strip
us down

the morning star
guides me
to my drowned
self

I am the sliver
buried in
your sex

I am worth
nothing
so much
as your hate
your indifference
your avoidance

this is a
place I have been before
I locked the doors
tossed the furniture
out the window
sat on the bare floor
and ripped myself
open

guts all over the
walls
a beating heart
still in my hand
ethereal
glowing
unreal

this land
so unreal

cast me out
demon
cast me down
hate me
spit me out
vomit me up
rip me apart

I am the eye
and I see you
the Scorpio moon
bound us
I burnt the hair
and found us
there

cast me out
I am your demon
in love for
eternity
and buried
under a hundred feet
of solid rock

I will never be right
and can only lust
like monsters do